So I found an old youtube account yesterday that I had totally forgotten about and it really crushed me to see the videos. I guess I stopped using that acct pretty soon after diagnosis because there is only 2 or 3 vids that I posted after that. It's the videos that were from the summer pre-D that really upset me now because NOW I see everything. Now I know that the reason that he used to scream and have wild mood swings was because D was attacking his sweet little body. Now I see the paleness and all that weight loss omg so much weight loss. My family are not all skinny minnies like my Mom, most of us are average size with a bit of squish :) So to see my kiddo who was once like the Michelin man all skin and bones really scares the hell out of me now. I just want a cure for all of our children, I want to be able to tell him that this is all going to be over now and that he can lead a normal carefree life. I would give my pancreas to him in a heartbeat if I could...why can't I?
here's a few vids that were literally shot back to back and you can see the mood swings. happy. sad. happy. This was 2 weeks before DX and he is so skinny :(
and now for the after DX video...feeling better clearly. Notice the booty bounce lol.